Ted
never declared his love to me. But, I
felt secure with him because was he so devoted and protective of me. He was a deeply interesting man because he
had only three profound beliefs:
(3) He seemed to believe in reincarnation without condemnation!
He
didn’t seem to believe in a personal God.
He certainly did not address a petitioning God. But every now and then he might refer to “The
Big Boy Upstairs” so I do not know what he believed in.
After
a while, he seemed to understand to whom I referred as GJean, when I said that
GJean had assigned me to him. He
certainly wouldn’t argue with me about that.
We lived together for 21 very interesting years. It was never dull
living with him, even though it was not smooth and easy.
He
had three years at the very end, even with serious heart trouble. He doctor insisted that he walk every day for
3 miles. His doctor said, “If it takes
you ten hours to do it, just do it!” I
found a very good park to take him to every day. I would haul his walker behind me while we
walked together. It had a good seat so
that he could sit down at any point.
That park was filled with dogs off their leash which was allowed
there. Ted loved dogs and the freedom of
that park was exhilarating.
His
joy in life continued even though he was seriously ill. We still had three very good years together. If fact, when he was dying from repeated
heart attacks, at a certain point it came to me that he was hanging on because
he was afraid of losing me. I came to
him next morning and said, “Don’t be afraid
of losing me because GJean didn’t assign me to you for one lifetime but for all
eternity.” Then he closed his eyes and
departed.
